My secret nightmares...

      Hello “gossipers”!! I'm here to do my last post until my graduation. Have u already missed me? And u, dear teacher? Well...I don't know what I'm talking about anymore, but..in the middle of such rambling, I will certainly say something useful...let's begin with a type of subject that I've been thinking for a while...

      I always thought my childhood would never end..but the truth is that I'm here, in the 12th grade, and I'm about to go to the university and get a job! Seriously?! All my life my parents tried to give me a proper childwood, tried to give me what I wanted, specially my mom, who lets me do WHATEVER I ask her to do and supports me in all the things (even if the smallest ones) that I need...she has supported all my “whims” and in the end, I can admit that I'm really dependent of my momy cookings and support.

     

 Now, I'm about to become alone, physically and pshicologically alone, because it's almost certain that I'm going to another city, to a residential, leaving my mother's lap, leaving my friends, leaving my room, my private space, some of my material goods....I'm going to the unfamiliar, to the unknown.

       Despite the fact that I want to ignore that I'm about to lose some of the people I consider my friends, that is the harsh truth... and it's now time for me to recognise this nightmare and believe that almost all the things in life are finite, and now I have to porsuit what I think that is my future and believe that I will find new friends, some even better, and that I will find the hapiness that I want for the rest of my life. But, although I'm only 17, I can say that there's no time like our childwood, when u don't have any problems, when u are spontaneous and don't give a sh*t for what people think about u.

       So, and to finish in a good way, I have to say that the ones who are feeling like me should express their feelings, not just by leaving a comment on this post, but also by talking about this kind of stuff, about your feelings, openly. I will certainly adjust to that kind of “uncertain future” and one day u will ear about me, hopefully on your television...when I conquer my goals!

       Thank you for reading this and I hope that u all achieve happiness, doing what u REALLY want do do. Good holidays, and I hope u miss me (u too, dear teacher) .

XOXO, Oh My Gossip,

Sara